Thursday, August 18, 2011
Schizophrenics: what kind of hallucinations did you experience? and how do you interpret them?
In the beginning I probably didn't realize how evil this spiritual dimension is, but I guess it was because I've had friends out there that made music with me like tracy chapman and madonna and stuff, who said head up, and with whom I've spent a good time. But I've always had those kinda demons around me that whispered and invaded the appartment,or smells that came out of nowhere (once there was a mans perfume in my apt...it came out of nowhere and it was very strong), dark creatures following me, people whosneaked around in my appartment at night (I hate those, once one of them vomited in my toilet), voices that came closer with each psychosis, like as if there was someone (and I mean really)...guns that are pointed at me....Once I've held the hand of a very old woman I guess I have not seen her, but I felt it, I dont know if she was good or bad...but the other day my place was haunted like in one of those movies, I could hear the spirits whirl around in the room they went round in the room, and once I've had demonlike people around me I've heard them they were sitting on a table and acting very violent and rude and like demons....and bats and evil dogs after me at night. I interpret it like there is a spiritual world that absolutely wants to keep me out, that fights against me having a good time and feeling safe and being myself. I used to think it was a taste of hell that awaits me, but I don't like to think of it that way, because I don't see myself as a bad person, just helpless when on meds. I dont like to think of it as hell awaiting me, that's why I better not think about it that way.But if I would have to say where they're coming from I would say from hell if there is a place like hell...
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